a break in the storm

I wish we had an update, some news, something to say other than "still waiting." But we don't. There's a calm in the storm. From November to April it seemed the waves were merciless. Now, just still, calm seas. We wonder if we're just being given some time to catch our breath before the next tidal wave hits... it's hard not to think that way. But we're doing all we can to use this break in the storm to our advantage, to gain our strength and continue building on the strong foundation we've built. Lots of date nights, trips away, time at home, focusing on each other and on Christ. We're investing more time in our friends and in our family, trying desperately to keep the focus off ourselves.

We've come to the point where we've accepted that becoming parents may not happen the way we thought. We've been humbled by His dissolution of our plans. God may have something entirely different in mind. We just don't know what that is.

"The rain came down, the streams rose, and the winds blew and beat against that house; yet it did not fall, because it had its foundations on the rock." -Matthew 7:25

We pray for blessings...

I've been listening to this song over and over and over. It's just what my heart needs to hear every time.

"Blessings" by Laura Story

We pray for blessings
We pray for peace
Comfort for family, protection while we sleep
We pray for healing, for prosperity
We pray for Your mighty hand to ease our suffering
All the while, You hear each spoken need
Yet love us way too much to give us lesser things

Cause what if Your blessings come through raindrops?
What if Your healing comes through tears?
What if a thousand sleepless nights
Are what it takes to know You’re near?
What if trials of this life are Your mercies in disguise?

We pray for wisdom
Your voice to hear
And we cry in anger when we cannot feel You near
We doubt Your goodness, we doubt Your love
As if every promise from Your Word is not enough
All the while, You hear each desperate plea
And long that we'd have faith to believe

Cause what if Your blessings come through raindrops?
What if Your healing comes through tears?
What if a thousand sleepless nights
Are what it takes to know You’re near?
And what if trials of this life are Your mercies in disguise?

When friends betray us
When darkness seems to win
We know the pain reminds this heart
That this is not, this is not our home

Cause what if Your blessings come through raindrops?
What if Your healing comes through tears?
And what if a thousand sleepless nights
Are what it takes to know You’re near?
What if my greatest disappointments
Or the aching of this life
Is the revealing of a greater thirst this world can’t satisfy?
And what if trials of this life
The rain, the storms, the hardest nights
Are Your mercies in disguise?