P.J has some news...
While it may come as a surprise to many (understandable, by the way), we've decided to enter the adoption process again and add another child to our family! After a lot of prayer and thought, we feel the Lord confirmed to us that both we and P.J are ready to grow our family.
We signed our contract with Little Angel Adoptions (the same agency we used before) just a few days ago and we'll be turning in our revised profile books this week so they can be sent to potential birth parent matches.
This decision to get back on the horse, so to speak, did not come easily. In fact, we've held off on announcing it publicly for as long as we could. To the few we have told, the response is typically, "That's exciting!" to which we say, "Is it?" Our scars are healed, but we have not forgotten the long and heartbreaking journey this road led us down before. We know this time will likely (hopefully) be different, but the excitement and anticipation we felt the first time has been replaced with reservation, caution, and realistic expectations.
It's funny what a difference three years makes on your perspective. Now that we have P.J, our every waking moment is not consumed with when we'll get that phone call and questioning God's timing and His plan. Instead, our primary focus is on being our family of three, loving our daughter with all that we have and keeping Christ the center of our home. We are waiting to adopt, yes, but even more we are waiting patiently on the Lord to work all things out for His good, not ours. If it takes no time at all or it takes forever, we are content with the gift He's given us in Providence Joy and we will continue to be grateful for her, whether she gains a sibling or not.
Our focus is to minister to the birth mom (or moms) we are matched with. We will love on her, pray for her, and help her in any way we can, regardless of the decision she makes about the child she's carrying. We will not consider that child ours until the papers are signed. In the end, we have learned that no matter how long it takes, the child we are meant to have will end up in our arms, one way or another.
To all of you who supported us, loved us, and most importantly petitioned the Lord on our behalf during our last experience, we thank you. Not a day goes by when we we don't think of all the people, both seen and unseen, who helped bring Providence to us. We trust the Lord will provide us joy once again.
